Feels like nobody in this world, except me.
Just call me bitch or whatever, I don't give a damn, people.
I start with this, my (current) unspoken thoughts: I feel like I'm losing some friends. Close friends I mean. Paling nggak mereka menurut gw adalah teman dekat, gw gak tau apa sama dengan mereka.
Gw merasa sangat sendiri, diantara riuhnya tugas. Kadang merasa bersyukur karena dikasih kesempatan untuk ngerjain tugas dengan konsentrasi penuh, tanpa ajakan makan di luar atau nonton bioskop bareng. But then I finally feel so.................... forgotten. Blame me for thinking such a lame girl.
Bukannya kangen atau rindu, I'd rather blocked myself from them, the used-to-be-my-circle-of-friends. I'm not mad, it's just, umm.....hating myself for feel pitty. Found out that I can't count on you guys. And you guys don't need me actually. While in fact, I will be on the first line, everytime they need me. I could always be a shoulder to cry on, even when I'm down.
And now...................... semuanya berubah!
Seems like they hate me much, hate me for what I think, for what I be. Okay, let's be clear, I hate basa-basi thingy. I am so disappointed, saat kemarin Jumat, mau makan di Wendys. Deep inside, I wish you guys could come, but....... ha ha ha fuck. I hate you guys at the time. But then I think again, and realize that....................................
You guys are so happy together, really fun, fancy people, and I'm not that fun to be in.
A fragile like me, mungkin bisa marah lebay karena selalu dikatain. A fragile like me, sebenernya memang suka nggak bisa diajak bercanda. Kaku. Nggak asik. Sensitif.
Yes, untuk masa-masa ini gw memang bukan cewek asik yang suka bercanda. Kerjaannya nangis tiap hari, labil kayak abg, cengeng gila, cupu deh pokoknya. But, can you guys just deal with it? That I'm only a girl, who could explode at a time? Can you guys just support me, come to me, and say that everything's just gonna be okay?
Can you guys respect me for what I feel, understand me when I'm mad? Bukannya malah balik membanci gw karena merasa kalau gw terlalu lebay untuk kesel sama hal yang beginian. Karena disaat kalian bunuh orang sekalipun, I'll be there and hug you guys, and I'll say that everythings gonna be just fine, so don't worry cause you have me. Kind of stupid friend, huh?
It's simply because I know how it feels when everybody hates you, being the forgotten one, a wasted. I have been there. It's sucks, really.
If you guys read this and hate me for what I wrote, maybe you guys are the least thing from God. So sorry to say.
P.S. Sorry for being rude and a really bad english.
Just call me bitch or whatever, I don't give a damn, people.
I start with this, my (current) unspoken thoughts: I feel like I'm losing some friends. Close friends I mean. Paling nggak mereka menurut gw adalah teman dekat, gw gak tau apa sama dengan mereka.
Gw merasa sangat sendiri, diantara riuhnya tugas. Kadang merasa bersyukur karena dikasih kesempatan untuk ngerjain tugas dengan konsentrasi penuh, tanpa ajakan makan di luar atau nonton bioskop bareng. But then I finally feel so.................... forgotten. Blame me for thinking such a lame girl.
Bukannya kangen atau rindu, I'd rather blocked myself from them, the used-to-be-my-circle-of-friends. I'm not mad, it's just, umm.....hating myself for feel pitty. Found out that I can't count on you guys. And you guys don't need me actually. While in fact, I will be on the first line, everytime they need me. I could always be a shoulder to cry on, even when I'm down.
And now...................... semuanya berubah!
Seems like they hate me much, hate me for what I think, for what I be. Okay, let's be clear, I hate basa-basi thingy. I am so disappointed, saat kemarin Jumat, mau makan di Wendys. Deep inside, I wish you guys could come, but....... ha ha ha fuck. I hate you guys at the time. But then I think again, and realize that....................................
You guys are so happy together, really fun, fancy people, and I'm not that fun to be in.
A fragile like me, mungkin bisa marah lebay karena selalu dikatain. A fragile like me, sebenernya memang suka nggak bisa diajak bercanda. Kaku. Nggak asik. Sensitif.
Yes, untuk masa-masa ini gw memang bukan cewek asik yang suka bercanda. Kerjaannya nangis tiap hari, labil kayak abg, cengeng gila, cupu deh pokoknya. But, can you guys just deal with it? That I'm only a girl, who could explode at a time? Can you guys just support me, come to me, and say that everything's just gonna be okay?
Can you guys respect me for what I feel, understand me when I'm mad? Bukannya malah balik membanci gw karena merasa kalau gw terlalu lebay untuk kesel sama hal yang beginian. Karena disaat kalian bunuh orang sekalipun, I'll be there and hug you guys, and I'll say that everythings gonna be just fine, so don't worry cause you have me. Kind of stupid friend, huh?
It's simply because I know how it feels when everybody hates you, being the forgotten one, a wasted. I have been there. It's sucks, really.
If you guys read this and hate me for what I wrote, maybe you guys are the least thing from God. So sorry to say.
P.S. Sorry for being rude and a really bad english.
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